note: ppl keep telling me that i dont write anything but poems on sadness
and gore and black and bad so i decided to try something happy but
i was only partially successful :P read and enjoy!
Stars, above, shining with all their might,
Sending the opalescent light into my eyes,
I could capture it and turn it into a twinkle,
If only I had a moment.
Laughter emerging from the mingling of the leaves and the wind,
Inviting me to share it using their subtle hints,
I could put it on and turn it into a smile,
If only I had a moment.
Years filled up with eternities, have passed,
Gifting me my present and my past,
I could discern the difference and grow up,
If only I had a moment.
moments have come,moments have gone,
Sometimes deserting me in the middle of a crowd,
And the other times, giving me company, when alone.
Never did I acknowledge their transient presence,
Neither did I sense their leaving me behind and moving beyond.
Beyond all the light years that are fathomable,
Moments that passed away and sank into the unimaginable.
I could steal at least one of 'em and hide it inside my heart,
If only I had a moment,
If only I had a moment!
A VOID
An emptiness in me exists
Filled up with a hazy mist
That does not clear up at all
Making my existence insignificant and small.
I used to enjoy the dewdrops
That inhabit the long thorny weeds
But crushed are now the hopes
of even the delicate flowers of amusing me.
Space in my heart is just a void
As vast as the bleak universe
Wrapping me up with its black shroud
watching me die and turn into a soulless corpse.
Vaccuums form when the spirit decays
And aches in that void become ceaseless
The sore grief looms over me like a shadow
Hence left, is a void in the void for all the tomorrows.
Filled up with a hazy mist
That does not clear up at all
Making my existence insignificant and small.
I used to enjoy the dewdrops
That inhabit the long thorny weeds
But crushed are now the hopes
of even the delicate flowers of amusing me.
Space in my heart is just a void
As vast as the bleak universe
Wrapping me up with its black shroud
watching me die and turn into a soulless corpse.
Vaccuums form when the spirit decays
And aches in that void become ceaseless
The sore grief looms over me like a shadow
Hence left, is a void in the void for all the tomorrows.
I WISH
Wish I could really sneak
Off to some world faraway
Where future would not appear so bleak
And past is not a burden of unfulfilled dreams.
The world of no goals and ambitions
And journey to there is adventurous
Where realising dreams is not arduous
but within the realms of comprehension.
Will I ever get there?
Or is the thought completely romantic?
I shall never know for sure
Because blurred are always the dreams that are unrealistic.
But i continue to wish ceaselessly
To reach for that world faraway
So I watch the nights fly
And the days melt,with a little hope
And sometimes, hopelessly.
Off to some world faraway
Where future would not appear so bleak
And past is not a burden of unfulfilled dreams.
The world of no goals and ambitions
And journey to there is adventurous
Where realising dreams is not arduous
but within the realms of comprehension.
Will I ever get there?
Or is the thought completely romantic?
I shall never know for sure
Because blurred are always the dreams that are unrealistic.
But i continue to wish ceaselessly
To reach for that world faraway
So I watch the nights fly
And the days melt,with a little hope
And sometimes, hopelessly.
LONELINESS
note: writing a poem like this is sad in a way 'cos it brings out my
inner conflicts so obviously but i did feel very good after penning
this one down.It did relieve me of the misery i was going through then.
Surrounded by a crowd of familiar faces,
But why am I so lonely?
Disgusted by the pretence around
Destined to suffer gradually.
Filled up with extreme wrath
And an urge to kill almost equivalent
To dying; like there was never a beginning
Left with only broken pieces of my heart!
What did I do to deserve this?
Do not I ever qualify to be happy?
Why am i subjected to this torture?
And so much more is being added to my agony?
Alone, alas! I reside
Within the confinements of my soul
To die painfully is the prophecy
and to be buried along my woes.
inner conflicts so obviously but i did feel very good after penning
this one down.It did relieve me of the misery i was going through then.
Surrounded by a crowd of familiar faces,
But why am I so lonely?
Disgusted by the pretence around
Destined to suffer gradually.
Filled up with extreme wrath
And an urge to kill almost equivalent
To dying; like there was never a beginning
Left with only broken pieces of my heart!
What did I do to deserve this?
Do not I ever qualify to be happy?
Why am i subjected to this torture?
And so much more is being added to my agony?
Alone, alas! I reside
Within the confinements of my soul
To die painfully is the prophecy
and to be buried along my woes.
SOARING TIDES
A pair of wings are given to me
Should I fly?
Or let this moment pass by?
The universe is all mine to see.
Let me hold this dream a little longer
Its been only a while since I closed my eyes,
To behold this beautiful sight
A few moments and I would wake up, dont wonder.
Floating on these soaring tides
Having in my hands, all that I can have
Getting back, everything that i had once lost
I experience a wonderful high.
The whole cosmos has been captured,
By me and in my heart, it lies entrapped
How will it get away from my grasp?
Unless I let it fall apart.
Dreams have a thin periphery
Falling back into reality is scary
Which one is mine?
A world I fly in or the other I live in?
I choose the real sky,
The real ocean and the real nights.
But only to go back to my dreams,
My clandestine universe and my soaring tides.
Should I fly?
Or let this moment pass by?
The universe is all mine to see.
Let me hold this dream a little longer
Its been only a while since I closed my eyes,
To behold this beautiful sight
A few moments and I would wake up, dont wonder.
Floating on these soaring tides
Having in my hands, all that I can have
Getting back, everything that i had once lost
I experience a wonderful high.
The whole cosmos has been captured,
By me and in my heart, it lies entrapped
How will it get away from my grasp?
Unless I let it fall apart.
Dreams have a thin periphery
Falling back into reality is scary
Which one is mine?
A world I fly in or the other I live in?
I choose the real sky,
The real ocean and the real nights.
But only to go back to my dreams,
My clandestine universe and my soaring tides.
SELF REVELATION
I was told by my friend, a star
To dream for the unpredictable
For something mystic, something bizarre
To think and pray for I was unaware.
Unaware of the mysteriousness of my soul
The sacred thread that holds only the bold
Courage lies in a warm heart, I was told
And in the rarest of the rare, true blood.
So I set out to seek these treasures
And found them buried beneath the red layers.
Of my heart with thy blessings un-separable,
From my veins and thy faith instilled in my nerves.
The mystery unfolds and unleashes a beast,
A beast caught in its own ferocity and wilderness
The beast is my mind and its uncontrollable mess
A mess full of tangles that cant be undone.
Ferocity of the beast accelerates with every thirst
Mind, invigorated as soon as the hunger sated
Controls of life slipping and water of life, too scarce.
I keep plunging into grief that is hardly iridescent.
Death shall bring a sweet resurrection
A re-establishment of calm and peace
In the end it'll bring me ashore, to cease
The violence of the beast.
And its gore shall effervesce
Forever into the ever-stretching nothingness.
To dream for the unpredictable
For something mystic, something bizarre
To think and pray for I was unaware.
Unaware of the mysteriousness of my soul
The sacred thread that holds only the bold
Courage lies in a warm heart, I was told
And in the rarest of the rare, true blood.
So I set out to seek these treasures
And found them buried beneath the red layers.
Of my heart with thy blessings un-separable,
From my veins and thy faith instilled in my nerves.
The mystery unfolds and unleashes a beast,
A beast caught in its own ferocity and wilderness
The beast is my mind and its uncontrollable mess
A mess full of tangles that cant be undone.
Ferocity of the beast accelerates with every thirst
Mind, invigorated as soon as the hunger sated
Controls of life slipping and water of life, too scarce.
I keep plunging into grief that is hardly iridescent.
Death shall bring a sweet resurrection
A re-establishment of calm and peace
In the end it'll bring me ashore, to cease
The violence of the beast.
And its gore shall effervesce
Forever into the ever-stretching nothingness.
A SMALL REQUEST
ok, its been long since i have blogged or put up anything.. i wrote quite a few poems
in the meanwhile so here i go putting them in my safe deposit box :P
The shape of my dreams,
My desires and fantasies
The silver of divinity gleams
Slowly with uncertainty.
My 'wrongs' are mine and no one else's
My 'rights' are always debatable
It takes a few nightmares and curses,
To make life hell.
When will an angel rescue me?
When will this monotony stop?
I desire sinfully,
To be placed atop.
If not the queen's throne
Then at least make me strong willed
'cos my dreams have shown
A world of adventures that is misery filled.
Allow me to breakaway and flee,
An imprisoned life is as good as the end
Let me reach out to my destiny
And i shall no more pretend.
To live and laugh
When the bitter tears are always hidden
A few stars i want to have
And an unpretentious life to live again.
in the meanwhile so here i go putting them in my safe deposit box :P
The shape of my dreams,
My desires and fantasies
The silver of divinity gleams
Slowly with uncertainty.
My 'wrongs' are mine and no one else's
My 'rights' are always debatable
It takes a few nightmares and curses,
To make life hell.
When will an angel rescue me?
When will this monotony stop?
I desire sinfully,
To be placed atop.
If not the queen's throne
Then at least make me strong willed
'cos my dreams have shown
A world of adventures that is misery filled.
Allow me to breakaway and flee,
An imprisoned life is as good as the end
Let me reach out to my destiny
And i shall no more pretend.
To live and laugh
When the bitter tears are always hidden
A few stars i want to have
And an unpretentious life to live again.
ACCUSED
A lot of times, it happens
I miss the signs
that glare right into my eyes
And then they vanish.
Accosting the risks i am,
But the will to fight is absent
The mental struggle is enervating
Even when the outcome is irrelevant.
Indolent is my spirit
And mind complacent with my prerogatives,is what they say
Nature castigates me
For the wrongs that I often do not instigate.
It is claimed,self-deterioration is the result
Of my decaying intellect.
My deeds are accused of cowardice
And existence defamed on the grounds of self neglect.
Circumstances,I do not blame
Its only my wounded conscience I m trying to exonerate
I wont surrender to the soldiers of time
And so,my accused life,I shall resurrect.
I miss the signs
that glare right into my eyes
And then they vanish.
Accosting the risks i am,
But the will to fight is absent
The mental struggle is enervating
Even when the outcome is irrelevant.
Indolent is my spirit
And mind complacent with my prerogatives,is what they say
Nature castigates me
For the wrongs that I often do not instigate.
It is claimed,self-deterioration is the result
Of my decaying intellect.
My deeds are accused of cowardice
And existence defamed on the grounds of self neglect.
Circumstances,I do not blame
Its only my wounded conscience I m trying to exonerate
I wont surrender to the soldiers of time
And so,my accused life,I shall resurrect.
FOR YOU
A gentle breeze of the autumn
A mind so calm and serene
Words falling from her mouth like pearls
An enigma or a dream?
She stands by the corner
And silently looks at the noisy world
When asked for an answer
She comes out of her reverie, puzzled
Her temper, an icy fire
Her tears so true and pure
To call her an angel, would i dare?
Or a spell wisely conjured!
When i go through the fiery nights
Of remorse and doubt
She comes to my rescue with her divine light
Making her presence announced
she stands by me like a pillar
Of that silent strength
Which assures my scared heart
That she is there and then,
She expresses through her eyes
'till death do us part'
We shall be what the world is envious of,
Friends and soul mates
Belonging to the rarest, the divine class.
For i may not know,
How else to suggest
That you mean a world to me
And meaningless is the rest,
Of the world,full of false dreams
So i write this for you
To tell you how much you mean,
To me, forever,always and through
the journey of this life.
I may understand certain nuances
of this mystery.
Of i met you by achance
and now I am here living in peace
Cherishing every second of your heavenly presence
That even in my absence;
You shall understand,
That i treasure you in my heart,
Like all those unsung songs,
I decorate with lyrics
Like that butterfly i chase
And instead find you in all those hints;
Of the confusing trick that this world plays.
As you glow like a halo
in the whites, blacks and greys.
I have done what i wanted to,
Give this to you which is truly for you.
Paint Me A Picture
Take some colours from my eyes
And a few thoughts from my mind,
Make a brush out of the lines in my hand,
And paint me a picture.
Throw some hues of happiness
And a few long strokes of imagination
Encroach my soul to find my portrait
And paint me a picture.
Draw my dreams on my heart
Sketch my life with your true thoughts
Sprinkle on it a few of my feelings
And paint me a picture.
Capture all of the ecstatic moments
Also shade my translucent tears
Use my essence to liven it
And paint me a picture.
Give it life with my breath
Enlighten it with a face
Fill it up with the music of my heart beats.
Liberate me you will,
When you paint me a picture.
And a few thoughts from my mind,
Make a brush out of the lines in my hand,
And paint me a picture.
Throw some hues of happiness
And a few long strokes of imagination
Encroach my soul to find my portrait
And paint me a picture.
Draw my dreams on my heart
Sketch my life with your true thoughts
Sprinkle on it a few of my feelings
And paint me a picture.
Capture all of the ecstatic moments
Also shade my translucent tears
Use my essence to liven it
And paint me a picture.
Give it life with my breath
Enlighten it with a face
Fill it up with the music of my heart beats.
Liberate me you will,
When you paint me a picture.
Tell Me
Tell me if you want to be loved,
Tell me if you are lonely.
Tell me all that is there in your mind,
Tell me, even if I am the one and only.
Left to walk this earth
When humanity looms in dearth
When meanings lose importance
When words do not make any sense.
When you cradle in restlessness
Tell me if your dreams have become dark.
When life is not just dubious
But plays games with you,
When no help is rendered from your conscience
Tell me if your soul has decayed through and through.
When decisions are hard to arrive at,
When your thoughts are misunderstood,
If everything you had is lost,
Hold your shaking hand, I would.
I shall not make an eternal promise
To get you ashore
But if you believe in me, even if less;
I shall kiss the tips of your fingers to reassure.
To show you the silver light in the dark clouds
And make you smile some more.
Tell me if you are lonely.
Tell me all that is there in your mind,
Tell me, even if I am the one and only.
Left to walk this earth
When humanity looms in dearth
When meanings lose importance
When words do not make any sense.
When you cradle in restlessness
Tell me if your dreams have become dark.
When life is not just dubious
But plays games with you,
When no help is rendered from your conscience
Tell me if your soul has decayed through and through.
When decisions are hard to arrive at,
When your thoughts are misunderstood,
If everything you had is lost,
Hold your shaking hand, I would.
I shall not make an eternal promise
To get you ashore
But if you believe in me, even if less;
I shall kiss the tips of your fingers to reassure.
To show you the silver light in the dark clouds
And make you smile some more.
Spring
Spring, Oh spring you are the season's king
When my heart plays and sings
And the colours of the rainbows look more distinct
Filling me up with joy and taking over my instincts.
Love in the air, so lovely and pure
It is the effect of spring for sure
Butterflies fluttering over every flower
The naughty downpour, when you shower.
Earth is full of yellows, greens and pink
Gushing water, when the soil drinks.
Producing the refreshing fragrances,
After its mighty thirst quenches.
This is when I pine for you the most
Mind distracted and heart flutters
Waiting for the footsteps by the candle-light
Draped in the purest white.
Eyes and ears on the window,
The night crawls at a pace so slow
A rose and a lily in my hand,
Time slipping away like sand.
Come just once and you will see,
A smile brightest ever and me.
I wait and wait for you in the spring,
My prince get me a song or a ring.
A ring full of true promises
An embrace of your arms my heart misses
With the moon ablaze and the death of the sun,
Tell me my love, if you will come?
If you wish, I shall wait forever
In all the springs, summers and winters.
But, the same song my heart will sing
Longing for you in the next spring.
Crossing the oceans, you'll receive my songs
A mere presence, my heart longs
If you do not get them or my ring,
At least, at your doorstep, there'll be this beautiful spring.
It shall remind you of me, year after year,
And I will reside in your heart forever.
When my heart plays and sings
And the colours of the rainbows look more distinct
Filling me up with joy and taking over my instincts.
Love in the air, so lovely and pure
It is the effect of spring for sure
Butterflies fluttering over every flower
The naughty downpour, when you shower.
Earth is full of yellows, greens and pink
Gushing water, when the soil drinks.
Producing the refreshing fragrances,
After its mighty thirst quenches.
This is when I pine for you the most
Mind distracted and heart flutters
Waiting for the footsteps by the candle-light
Draped in the purest white.
Eyes and ears on the window,
The night crawls at a pace so slow
A rose and a lily in my hand,
Time slipping away like sand.
Come just once and you will see,
A smile brightest ever and me.
I wait and wait for you in the spring,
My prince get me a song or a ring.
A ring full of true promises
An embrace of your arms my heart misses
With the moon ablaze and the death of the sun,
Tell me my love, if you will come?
If you wish, I shall wait forever
In all the springs, summers and winters.
But, the same song my heart will sing
Longing for you in the next spring.
Crossing the oceans, you'll receive my songs
A mere presence, my heart longs
If you do not get them or my ring,
At least, at your doorstep, there'll be this beautiful spring.
It shall remind you of me, year after year,
And I will reside in your heart forever.
In A Day's Work
The wrinkles of the bedspread
The softness of the pillows
Singing of the cuckoo bird
Far away in a willow.
The morning awakens lazily
With the night's dreams, still in the eyes
When the night recedes to a mere point
I am awoken with a smile.
Bringing with it, the brimming hope
In a cup of tea,
The brightness of the rest of the day
Mixed as the sugar in it.
The day ripens, filled with the promises
And the world starts to ripple
I wonder how the evening would be
Hopefully as beautiful as the rainbow colours.
The sun shines with all its might
And the ocean tide rises,
People moving in a frenzy,
The sweat of hardwork glistens.
Alas, the wonderful day ends
And with it, arrives the night
Black yet full of colours
A fitting end to a day, so nice, so right.
Again the same bedspread,
And the dreams hopeful of entering my eyes
To take me to an amazing world
Where another day would raise its blinds.
Retrospection
A moment filled with an eternity,
A heart filled with memories
Some forgettable and some too difficult to let go,
Very essential to be buried though.
Would it make my existence any more worthwhile?
Would it, to my face bring a smile?
Would it matter to anyone?
If I become just no one.
If I fade away from someone's memories
Would it hurt if I try?
But those moments teach me how to grow.
To be a better person, I was never before.
To look into the perspective,
And respect all that I have.
Ceratin bonds made special over the years
And some tears, cried together;
Smiles that were shared and the pain too
Words unspoken, yet so true.
A precious prize, yes, that is my present
A lesson god send.
I know now, of a love so selfless
'Cos I chose a road less travelled
I cherish the joy and forget the agony
Inflicted, in my past, by many.
I'd like to tell the ever merciless time
Now I guess i do love my life.
Tunnel of Downfall
Visuals of fury, fragments of wrath,
Broken pieces of which I hath
They slipped away from a slippery grip
Blood and flesh from my heart was ripped
Blood and flesh from my heart was ripped
Apart, eons ago, in an eternity away
Where the moons and stars once swayed.
In the lap of that bright black night
Shapeless shadows were caught by my eyes
Eyes blinded by a debilitating numbness
Reserve of courage reduced to its last breath
Devils in me chained in a curfewEyes blinded by a debilitating numbness
Reserve of courage reduced to its last breath
Defiant and refusing to accept the truth.
Glowering pain in my cowering mind,
I saw, I smelled, I felt the fright.
Dark, dark, oh ! dark was everywhere
While caught in its blinding stare,
I sensed the fumes, the flames and all the familiar scents
In the dark, where at alast I did descend.
Two Roads Diverged In A Yellow Wood
Walking through the dark castles
of my dream's dungeons and aisles,
sweating with fear and anxiety.
Wondering 'bout life's own varieties,
of love, treachery and emotions.
Sinking hopes with the setting sun.
The thorns no more pricking
Mystery of life getting trickier
Happiness and contentment, a mirage
And liberation being caged
A world full of blossoms sans fragrance
The reality dressed as romance,
When I loaf around
In the blue sky and the green ocean
To end a never ending a never ending search
For selfless friends and trustworthy foes
I fancy myself with the idea
Of solitude being the saviour.
Is there any lighthouse around?
Or at least a lamp
How do I find my way out,
I cannot wait for the dawn break.
'Cos the devils of the morning
Fill me up with the false hopes.
I a left to wander in the thick wood
With no water and only the thorns would
Survive the harsh scarcity
of life, soul and full of dead peace
With the two roads diverging in front of me
Lost in this frightening mystery
I hope to wake up some day,
Liberated and having taken the right path
Which converges into my identity.
of my dream's dungeons and aisles,
sweating with fear and anxiety.
Wondering 'bout life's own varieties,
of love, treachery and emotions.
Sinking hopes with the setting sun.
The thorns no more pricking
Mystery of life getting trickier
Happiness and contentment, a mirage
And liberation being caged
A world full of blossoms sans fragrance
The reality dressed as romance,
When I loaf around
In the blue sky and the green ocean
To end a never ending a never ending search
For selfless friends and trustworthy foes
I fancy myself with the idea
Of solitude being the saviour.
Is there any lighthouse around?
Or at least a lamp
How do I find my way out,
I cannot wait for the dawn break.
'Cos the devils of the morning
Fill me up with the false hopes.
I a left to wander in the thick wood
With no water and only the thorns would
Survive the harsh scarcity
of life, soul and full of dead peace
With the two roads diverging in front of me
Lost in this frightening mystery
I hope to wake up some day,
Liberated and having taken the right path
Which converges into my identity.
Where do I begin...?
Well, I've never had a blog before and I'm doin this only because a freind claimed that i should store all my work online as a safe and everlasting storage facility like some deposit box ! Most of my work is spontaneous and sometimes reflects my mood at that time or sometimes has nothing to do with what i feel, but all of them stem from a deep and unquenchable need to express myself and put my thoughts in words. So basically, all that i provide you with is a window to my life, mind and thoughts through my words.
Read, Enjoy, Comment Constructively.
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